Tuesday, May 27, 2008

We All Have a Voice

My first week in my new site had a few ups and downs. More ups than downs but I am feeling all of the feelings that I have been told I would feel. I would say that overwhelmed sums it up but there has been loneliness, happiness, surprise, gratitude, any many others. I know that it has only been a week and these feelings are going to change into other feelings as I find myself in new parts of my life and new experiences during this large experience. I look forward to these new things that are going to happen to me and I am even more cautious to the absorption of them and I will try to analyze them as opposed to just living in the moment and not realizing that the changes are happening.

For once I am in a part of the world where I am not really given a second glance and until I start speaking in spanish nobody really wonders that I would be from somewhere else. Whereas in the States I am usually always asked ¨Where are you from?¨ or ¨What is your nationality?¨ Hello?!?! I am from the UNITED STATES OF AMERICA...the last time I checked the USA is a Nation all its own. I am not sure how I feel about this. It has been a little bit of a challenge because a typical volunteer feels a lot of unwanted attention and I am not receiving any attention at all weather I want it or not. I am very proud to be Latina and I know that I am setting an incredible example for the young women here to show them that there are lots of successful young Latinas all over the world. Also, its been kind of nice to be only approached in spanish and for people to think that I am one of the locals. However, this is going to be a part of the integration process that I will have to work on.

The day that this ´blending in effect´ proved to be the most challenging was last Wednesday when I went to the school for the first time. I hadn´t been able to go during my site visit so I hadn´t met any of the students or staff. The day that I arrived at the school I just kind of blended in and nobody really understood why I was there. In the most professional manner possible I had to continuously explain the goals of my program and the reason why I was there. The majority of the teaching staff just nodded their heads and made funny faces when I told them that I was going to be in the school for the next two years.

Luckily, the students were my gateway to a day that proved to be full of such a positive rush that gave me energy and the excitement for the work I will be doing in the next two years. The population of the school is around 500 students and the grade levels are from preschool to sixth grade. During that week, the student elections were taking place. I guess that is what gave me the sensation that despite the lack of resources there still is an instillment of fundamental values that are of importance to the advancement of the youth of the world. In my opinion the freedom to vote and the freedom of speech is a right that every person should have and I am proud to be volunteering in a place that sees eye to eye. That same day that I blended in so well I was also helping the different political parties of the school make their propaganda to campaign for the party and promote their platforms etc. Isn´t this freedom such a beautiful thing. Although these kids might not realize the power that they have in this time in their lives it is something that they are learning from a young age that will be a part of their future and the values that they will hopefully teach the following generations.

I guess this made me think of the elections that are going on in the US and maybe these politicians need to put the innocence back into the election system and give back the legit idea of democracy back to the people. Maybe they just need to come to the school in my site and take a few lessons from the kids here. No matter how little resources and tangible goods there are in the barrio, the most important is that the youth is learning how to speak for themselves and as citizens and youth of their country they have an important role.

As for now I am in the second week in my site and I think that I am slowly but surely building relationships and am showing the members of the community that I am not from here but I am living here now and that means that I am just as much part of the community as they are. My voice is just as important and has just as much power as theirs does. Thus, I am looking forward to working with the people of the community to make our community even better.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

I Live in a Pink Room

I Live in a Pink Room

Yes, I live in a pink room. I am officially in my site now and lately all I can think about is how long and how short two years can really be. As soon as I unpacked ALL of my clothes I realized as I was dripping sweat all over the floor because of the heat how long and how short two years might be. It is long enough to read a lot of books, eat my fair share of patacones, and short enough that as soon as I become really comfortable in my site it might be almost time to leave.

I am living in a very nice house with a real family. (Yea...as opposed to a fake family....) The parents are in their mid thirties and they are both school teachers. They have two little boys, one that is three years old and one that is eleven months old. I was here for a visit about 3 weeks ago and it is nice to come back and see how things have changed. I arrived at the house and the eleven month old is walking now and that is when I discovered that there was something different about my future bedroom. It was now pink! It was most definitely better than the white walls from before. It is homier and now that I am settled in, I really feel like I live here.

This time I don´t feel as alone. Already, walking in the street I saw people that I had recognized from my site visit and it was a comforting feeling. Also, I am in the main center that a few other RCD (Rural Community Development) Volunteers come to meet with their counterparts, so I will be seeing them a least once a week. Both of my host parents, (its so weird referring to someone as a ¨parent¨ that is only about thirteen years older than I am, however, unfortunately I have also learned that something like that is not impossible) have large families that I will hopefully become a part of as my time here progresses.

For now I am looking forward to my bucket baths, sweating, and just enjoying learning about the dynamic of my site and getting to know the people in the community. There is a lot for me to take in at first but as long as I just keep my mind nice and open it will all be valuable for my future work and will make my stay here very successful and full of wonderful experiences.

By the way....I like my pink room:)